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The Dilemma

Feyd-Rautha laid on the porch by the back door all night long, and I could not have felt worse about the possibility of him going back to those people. He had finally started wagging his tail when he saw us come out, though he still hadn’t eaten anything but a couple treats. Summer left for Little Rock and I headed to work with the plan to deal with him later, though I texted Eaddie later and asked her to play with him some when she came back home from class.

I stayed pretty busy, but took time to email Animal Control again. They said they would send someone to do another welfare check, so I called to clarify that I still had the dog in custody. Tammie didn’t seem too concerned with what I had to say or what I wanted to do, so we just agreed to bring him in ourselves in the evening. I guess I wasn’t surprised, because it just comes with the job for them.

I met Summer for lunch at Ortega’s, and I was a little frustrated by the lack of service. They brought us a brand new bottle of salsa and then no chips, and didn’t get all of my order right. At least the food was good, but I could have gone for some more.

The afternoon was short just due to how late we ate, and then I asked to leave early so I could help Summer take Feyd to Animal Control. I raced home through slow traffic, and we wouldn’t have even made it on time if they hadn’t been waiting for Dreya to show up with another found dog. She talked to Summer briefly, and I took Feyd-Rautha into the loud, smelly, anxiety-inducing prison for the night. Tammie was of course unaffected, but did say the guy called looking for him. She did me the favor of not telling him that I had him, but said she would at least make him fill out the return paperwork tomorrow.

Summer and I headed back to the house and I started grilling steaks while she baked potatoes. I wanted to use charcoal this time, and it turned out pretty good. I even managed to use a small amount of charcoal without having a ton left over. At some point, we made it to the bedroom where I dug around and found my S21 Ultra, so I’ll be able to use it for the company picnic. We ate, and then I took Muad’Dib for a late run to see my parents. It was dark by the time we made it back, and we rushed to bed.

Oh, yes. I remember Gammu when it was Giedi Prime – the oil-soaked, blood-soaked hell hole of the Imperium!

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21 and Lost

I went to bed super late last night and had trouble feeling some sort of anxiety or nervousness or dread that I didn’t understand. I eventually fell asleep, but didn’t stay in bed very late. I got up and warmed breakfast for Summer and myself, and Eaddie left for church. We didn’t see her again.

I got into cleaning and reviews some more, but never had any luck with much of anything. My S21 Ultra was lost, and I felt a bit lost myself. I should have known exactly where it was, and the fact that I haven’t been able to find it at all has been nerve-wracking.

Summer went to the gym and I went to KFC to get a pot pie for $4.20, because apparently those are the kinds of jokes they’re making now. That was a surreal experience, because I walked into a seemingly abandoned restaurant that had a few people in the corner that didn’t look like they were there to eat. It took a while to get noticed, but the staff was otherwise friendly. I thought my glasses were smudged, but the air was just hazy. It didn’t smell like anything though. The cash register flashed garbled text, and it felt a little bit like I was in the Matrix. I got my food and headed back to the house to eat, and luckily the pot pie was amazing.

Summer got home and mowed the lawn while I continued working inside. We had set out steaks to defrost for dinner, but they were still frozen solid. Dad texted that Mom made eggplant soup, so Summer said I could go eat over there and then come back to grill her some brats. I ran over with Muad’Dib, we ate, and then I went to the Neighborhood Market to get her food.

By the time I got things cooking, she reminded me that she had to go to work for a meeting, so she didn’t even get to eat first. Luckily she didn’t mind eating late when she got back, and then I cleaned up a bit before bed.

Oh, to be.

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Down to Glass

I woke up with a stomach ache this morning, but luckily it was nothing long lasting. Summer kept saying she didn’t feel well though, and wasn’t sure if she was getting sick. Eaddie left the house super early, but neither of us knew what she had going on. Summer was going to make breakfast, but I stepped in for her to make sausage, egg, and cheese biscuits since she didn’t feel well.

After breakfast, Summer went to the gym and I jumped right into cleaning up and looking for my old S21 Ultra. I’ve been wanting to use it to play music at our company picnic, but I haven’t been able to find it anywhere. I dug down on my desk to the point that I could see through glass, and I even found my old Pixel 2 XL, but the Samsung is nowhere to be found.

I continued cleaning, stopping for a late lunch, and then to run Muad’Dib to see my parents as it got dark. Summer went to bed super early, still not feeling well. Eaddie was in and out and back in again, so we didn’t see much of her. I had an anxiety attack later in the evening, wrote some reviews, and then took a shower before winding down for bed. My feet and legs have been swelling up again, so I’ve been trying to keep an eye on my vitals. That just means more spreadsheets.

Dig dug!

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Doggy Daycare

I considered breakfast this morning, but couldn’t come up with a worthy deal in time and just showed up at work early instead. Amanda needed help downstairs, so I spent a while working down there. Teddy came out of Rhonda’s office and ran around with Muad’Dib for a while, but then she made him go back before we left. The morning went by pretty quickly, but luckily we left for lunch when we did, because I forgot about the call I had in the afternoon.

We ended up at Taco Bell, then made it back just in time to hop on with the Aptean guys again. There was really no point to the call other than for us to be prompted to fill out a survey. I didn’t leave great remarks. The afternoon really dragged on after that.

Chick-fil-A sent me a free fry, so we stopped by on the way to get those on the way home. I saw Kevin and Hope at AT&T, so we stopped there to see them while we ate. Kevin was on his way out, but I caught up with Hope a bit before we left. Just as we were pulling out, I met the new store manager and we chatted briefly, and he suggested I should come back and work a part-time position they had because he “liked my vibe.”

I was pretty hungry when we made it back to the house, so I ate some leftover mush with Summer and then we sat on the couch and watched some YouTube for a while. She suggested popcorn and a movie, but I guess she changed her mind after I took Muad’Dib on a late run in the cooler air.

We visited my parents, and then I basically had to drag him back home. I ate some other leftovers and Summer went to bed.

Woah, again.

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Grating Warmth

Muad’Dib seemed to feel a little sick this morning, because he jumped right out of the car and ate some grass, then sat down and threw it right back up. He didn’t act particularly puny otherwise, but something made him sick. We made it upstairs and got to work for a pretty busy day after that.

I couldn’t decide on lunch, but I thought I wanted to sit outside with him for a bit. That was until we got outside and he kept wandering around instead of coming back to me to get in the car. That irritated me to the point that I decided to leave him in the car while I went in for some Wendy’s.

The afternoon was busy as well, and we ended up leaving a little late. Traffic was a bit annoying, but at least Summer promised chicken and dumplings for dinner. She was breaking down a rotisserie chicken when we got to the house, so I took Muad’Dib for a medium-speed run. We visited Dad, and then I basically had to drag him the rest of the way home.

Dinner was okay. The lemon pepper chicken and canned biscuits made it too sweet with another slightly odd flavor, but it wasn’t bad. I tried to emphasize my appreciation. She went to be shortly after that, and I cleaned up and ate some leftover cake, but the kids got into it and destroyed a large part of it for some reason. I don’t know what they were trying to do, but it frustrated me. Frustrations compounded for a while until I finally got everything done for bed.

🪛

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Down and Dizzy

Summer made us some sausage, egg, and cheese biscuits for breakfast this morning, and I sat down to finalize my taxes. With passionate people on either side of the aisle, I went with an itemized deduction that felt fair in the spirit of the law and ended up paying a couple thousand more than what I had already started to withhold from my day job.

Eaddie was gone all day for “church” and then just living her life. Summer sat on the couch the entire day feeling pretty sorry for herself. I tried to get her to go out and walk Muad’Dib with me, but she just refused. We did warm up a chicken pot pie we picked up yesterday and ate that for a late lunch, and then I watered my plants and finally split and repotted the pink quill before taking a shower.

It looked a bit dark and stormy outside, so I took Muad’Dib for his best run all week. He must have really enjoyed the cool air. We visited my parents, and then just a block from home, I swerved back to make sure Muad’Dib didn’t run out into traffic, and the board got away from me. It wasn’t a terrible fall, but I messed up my knee and it felt progressively worse all night.

I made Summer get out of bed and watch me eat some meatloaf for a late dinner, and then wrapped up pretty quickly for bed. I had an anxiety attack in the afternoon while I was doing my taxes, and also felt waves of generalized anxiety for much of the day and beyond, so hopefully finishing my taxes and getting plenty of sleep will help get me out of that funk.

My meats are failing!

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Shop Along

It felt like we slept forever, but we didn’t sleep in too late. I did wake up with a bit of a stomach ache. Summer got up and made coffee and I got around to finish up some leftover cabbage and sausage. Then she left for the gym and I made myself a cup before doing a cleaning on the machine. She wanted to go grocery shopping to make meatloaf for dinner, so I got cleaned up and ready for the day.

I thought about riding the Onewheel with Muad’Dib and just meeting Summer at the store, but we ended up just driving together. She said she waited for me so I could go shopping too, but as soon as we walked in, she made a beeline for what she needed and I was left to catch up.

We got back to the house to unload, and then I took Muad’Dib for a run while she got things prepped for dinner. He was painfully slow again, and Dad wasn’t home either. I visited with Mom briefly since she had just woken up, and then we made it back to the house.

I cleaned up the dining area a bit for dinner, we ate, and then she sat on the couch and played on her phone while I thumbed through some YouTube and live video from Coachella. Most of that was terrible though. I tried putting on a couple different movies, but nothing stuck. We shared some cake that she made just as I was getting into Limitless, but she said she didn’t like it when she watched it the first time and decided it was time for bed.

The kids came home and wanted to watch a show, but they shut themselves up in Eaddie’s room. I finished my own stuff and went to bed a little early.

Just loafing around.

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Raise the Dead

I didn’t feel like I slept especially poorly last night, but I was in a deep sleep when my alarm went off this morning, and it took me forever to get going. I had a pretty jarring anxiety attack as we walked out the door. We got to work and I felt a little bit better, then had some coffee after a little while. I was super hungry by lunch, and Arby’s seemed like as good of a choice as anything. They had a fish sandwich box, and I got some extra fries to share with Muad’Dib.

We sat on a rock outside and ate in some surprisingly gusty wind. He did pretty great, and then I let him run up the road back to the office. I started to feel a little off in the afternoon, and I couldn’t figure out why. I’ve suspected the quality of my food, but it kind of feels like all I can do is go on a full Soylent diet to really test the theory.

The afternoon carried on, and then I took Muad’Dib for a run when we got home. He was frustratingly slow the whole way to the basin, so I stopped to sit down at a bench while he dove into the creek. Then I let him lead me through the neighborhood to Sequoyah where we turned up to the roundabout and back through the basin again. I let him take a swim in the cleaner, deeper part where we normally stop, and then we made it to see Dad. We waited for Mom to get home to try and confirm birthday plans, and then made it back to the house.

I gave Muad’Dib a really good bath and he did great. I spent a lot of extra time blow drying him instead of using his old, gross, dirty towel that needs laundering. He came out super fluffy, and was a good pup all night. Summer and I ate some different leftovers, and I started feeling a bit off again, so I laid down on the couch for a while. She went to sleep pretty quickly, and I tried to make it to bed a little earlier.

MOVE IT

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Quitcher Bellyachin’

I started first thing this morning with an emotional reaction to some silly account related stuff before I could even get up the stairs. With that mostly resolved, I had a quiet day with Muad’Dib. I’ve got to get over whatever hump I’m on with completing some projects, but at least I feel a little more secure in how I’ll be filing taxes.

Muad’Dib did wonderfully at Taco Bell for lunch. I had a discount on a tiny meal there, so we ended up swinging by Sonic for some chicken strips as well. I just ate them in the car when we got back to the office, and then we finished out the afternoon.

Summer was home a little earlier and cooked the potatoes and onions she prepped a couple days ago while I ran Muad’Dib to go see Dad. He wasn’t running very much, so I thought I’d try something new and improvise a new path. We made it, but I still left him behind for several blocks at a time. I don’t know why he just doesn’t seem to care about running until the very end.

Summer and I ate as soon as we got back, but then she had an emotional reaction to feeling miserable at work, which has been a frustration of my own for several years at this point. We finished eating and retired early, so I ran her a bath and then laid with her briefly before going off to do my own thing for the night.

The screen is just going to ask you a few questions.

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10/12

Today was accomplished with coffee. I wasn’t especially tired or groggy or underslept, but it was a day of mundane tasks. Summer was having a rough time at her meeting, but met me for lunch at Ortega’s. I begrudgingly let her get her $5 shot of cheese dip, which was an insane price to pay in contrast to the all-you-can-eat. Afterward, she took Muad’Dib with her to sit at the house.

I finished up my afternoon with only two months worth of Vine orders to process and felt good about having my taxes done within a day. The drive home was a bit frustrating behind a few groups of slow people though.

Muad’Dib went on a run as soon as I got there, and Eaddie was making chocolate covered strawberries for a classmate’s recital. Summer didn’t cook dinner again, and we just sat on the couch watching YouTube until she was ready for bed.

Oh, brother!