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Wingin’ It

We left in some light rain this morning, but had time to stop at Hardee’s for a burrito. I had a pretty quick anxiety attack in the morning, which put me out of whack for a lot of the day. On top of that, I was a little offput by the constant talk of AI when it was actually easier for me to just follow a well-documented tutorial to perform the import task we were trying to do.

When lunch time came around, we grabbed some fries and a drink from McDonald’s, and then Casey’s had a deal on chicken wings. We got back and stuffed ourselves in the office. Then things were mostly quiet until quitting time.

It was still wet by the time we got home, so we didn’t go on a run. Summer got some broccoli and I started the smoker to cook some steaks I had picked up on clearance. Eaddie finally made it home from her weekend trip, and we had a nice dinner together before cleaning up and dispersing. I stayed up later than I intended writing reviews, but they had to get done.

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NetBoxing Day

It rained quite a bit this morning, so the drive to work was mostly manual. We got into Morrilton earlier than I expected though, so I stopped at McDonald’s for a free frappΓ©. I jumped right into NetBox to try and get it going, and basically started over when my GPT guide went off the rails and Linux got a little scary. I wanted to keep things as clean as possible to avoid issues with my lack of understanding later.

I had an anxiety attack sometime in the morning while I was sitting there. We had a late lunch through some sprinkles, and then Janice had cake for Tyler’s birthday when we got back. The afternoon went by fairly quickly, and it sounded like I would be mostly alone next week as the holidays come around and people start using time off.

The drive home was more relaxed than I expected, but it was still raining when we got to the house, so we didn’t run. Summer got home shortly after I did, and we finished up some leftovers. Eaddie was home doing laundry, but eventually left to record something for band. I tried to clean up a little, did some reviews, and finished super early.

But did you document it?

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Table Talk

We got in this morning and had our staff meeting, so I was really glad I had some notes prepared, even if it wasn’t anything super important to share. I can tell it’s going to be difficult to sustain that, but maybe it’s a learned skill. I’m just not one to peacock.

Otherwise it was a pretty quiet day. I got a bit lost in the weeds again, and struggled to hold focus. I did manage to keep my McRib off of my light-colored shirt, so that was nice. Normally staff meeting days feel shorter, but not so today. Things didn’t get at all exciting until the end of the day when Elizabeth’s boyfriend brought their new puppy to visit. That was all within the last 15 minutes or so, and then it was time to leave.

Summer had to close the wash, so Muad’Dib went for a quick run and I ate chicken strips with my parents. The kids had already eaten and had a concert, but Summer got home just after I finished my quick cleanup and had a brief anxiety attack. I toasted some sourdough for her, and then hammered out some Vine reviews before bed.

With so much drama in the B-T-C, it’s kinda hard G – A – 𝕃 – O – P – I – N – G.

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Worked Like Dogs

Scott brought his new little puppy to work today, so Muad’Dib and I went to his office quietly to visit. She was a tiny little beagle named Maple, and Muad’Dib whined until he got to go sniff her, but we didn’t see her much after that. It was a quiet day, and I really struggled to get into anything serious. I tried to gather some notes to share at the staff meeting for the next day, and continued to document the network.

I tried to get a McRib for lunch, but the app failed me and I ended up just redeeming a free double cheeseburger and small fries instead. I got a vanilla cone on the way out, and shared that with Muad’Dib when we got back to the office. He ran around outside a bit, we came in, and then Janice had us come downstairs for cake she made for Elizabeth’s birthday.

The afternoon dragged a bit until we headed home. Summer had dinner just about ready, and I wasn’t feeling great, so I waited to run Muad’Dib until after we ate. I had an anxiety attack on the way down the hill, but we made it to see my parents before getting back to the house. Then it was a pretty early night to bed after tossing and turning all last night.

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Let’s Review

I didn’t sleep great, but we slept in just a little bit before getting up for coffee. The girls went outside and I sat down to write a bunch of reviews while continuing with laundry. The day went by really fast, and we were all aware that we felt a little moody. Maybe it was cycles, or maybe it was seasonal affectivity. Maybe it was the anxiety attack I had when I started laundry. Maybe it was a continuation of the melancholy and dissatisfaction that we all seem to have accepted.

Summer made it to the gym, and Eaddie left for a concert of some kind. I took Muad’Dib for a run a few minutes earlier than on work days, and then Summer and I went to Colton’s for a late dinner. We sat in the car for a while before going in, trying to work through some feelings. Then we ate too much and came home to go to bed.

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These Subnets Are Just Right

I was in a convoy of speeders all the way to work today, so I shaved quite a bit of time off the drive. I had an anxiety attack really early, and then I really tried to dig into network redesign. I think I’ve made a decision and am finally ready to move forward with some changes. Otherwise it was really quiet all day long. We had some McDonald’s, but their ice cream machine was down and I couldn’t redeem dessert.

The afternoon was short by comparison, and then I took Muad’Dib for a run as soon as we got to the house. Summer got home just as we were walking out, and went to bed with an aching back. I made a couple burritos once we got back, and then we expected more of the aurora in the evening, but it just didn’t happen. I was really surprised at the one second video time lapse I got from the Pixel 8 Pro’s astro photography mode last night. We ended up staying in and just went to bed early.

Really early.

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Why Five

We woke up to a crash at around three in the morning. I yelled for Muad’Dib, and he jumped right back into the bed, but I couldn’t tell that he caused any trouble. Once I gathered myself, I discovered the ice finally fell out of the mini fridge and shattered on the bottom shelf. I was able to doze off a few more times, but kept waking up in the middle of wildly different dreams every few minutes.

All the salespeople and our new marketing coordinator were going to be at the office for some technical training today, so I tried to get there a little early. Muad’Dib did great all day. We started out with brief introductions, and then I just went to work as usual until Shane walked into my office.

He asked for the “simple” task of capitalizing the company name on all of our WiFi SSIDs, not realizing this would require a touch to every device that was connected to any of the affected networks. I took the opportunity to learn some more, and built out some structure that I had planned for the distant future. Without RADIUS, I was still able to learn how to create a policy in Intune to distribute shared credentials. It wasn’t perfect, but it worked.

That ate up all of my day, but I did take a late lunch to eat some of their leftover steak tips they got for lunch. Janice, Elizabeth, and Tammy were in the breakroom as we walked out, and invited us in to eat. Muad’Dib did well to lay at my feet while I ate, and then we had Janice’s carrot cake for Scott’s belated birthday just as he was walking out the door.

I didn’t really finish my whole task before I left half an hour late, but I had enough done that I felt confident in my ability to clean it up in the morning when everyone was there. Summer had dinner going at the house, so we got there as quickly as we could. I took Muad’Dib for a quick run as the sun went down. We visited Dad, then got back to eat just as the kids were finishing their plates.

After dinner, I finished setting up the KitchenAid KF8 that Summer unboxed. We brewed a few cups with some trash coffee, and then I filled the hopper to make a single milk drink before bed. We shared a couple sips to test it, and then Summer went to bed. I had an anxiety attack as I cleaned up, and then went to bed pretty early in anticipation of another early morning.

Why not six?

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Bring Grandma to Work Day

We had enough time to stop for coffee and then a biscuit this morning, and then still had time to stretch our legs when we got to work before putting on Muad’Dib’s costume. I wore my red hoodie, and he wore his robe, hairnet, and eyeglasses, which everyone loved. Joel brought Dexter, and though he was skittish at first, he eventually warmed up to Muad’Dib. Muad’Dib kept stealing his toy bone though, and I had to scold him.

I got into the firewall some and figured out how to pass the traffic I needed to make the Unifi captive portal work, so we won’t need a WiFi password next week when everyone shows up for training. I spent a bunch of time out and about, and felt a little more comfortable joking around with people, which was great.

We went to McDonald’s for lunch and had a pretty bad experience again. It wasn’t terrible, but every single aspect of being there could have been made better with almost no effort. I ended up sending a huge letter of complaint through their online form, since they requested I do so after I left a poor Google review.

The afternoon went by fairly quickly. I had a sudden anxiety attack, and Joel sent us home half an hour early. Muad’Dib and I got to the house where Summer was preparing for trick-or-treaters. We went on our run with Muad’Dib dressed as a cow, and then I took him around the block again without the outfit so he could feel more comfortable running fast.

I ate some food and then we sat outside with Summer while she passed out candy. There weren’t very many people in our neighborhood, which was great news for me. We came inside and watched the rest of Ironheart before winding down for bed.

My, what big runs you have!

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The Secret Life of an Alien

I had an anxiety attack in bed while I was trying to go to sleep last night, which was a rare occurrance. At least I went to bed early, and got an above-average amount of sleep. We got out of the house and tried the other McDonald’s, but still got stuck in line again. It seems to be completely luck of the draw. I took my coffee and made it to Morrilton to order a biscuit for breakfast.

It was more deep-dive into the AI exploits of the fraudster technology manager, and I am one billion percent positive that he is an alien from another planet. I have begun collecting evidence. If I disappear or am found dead, then dear reader, do not believe anything they say about me. It was no accident. They got to me, and silenced me the only way they could.

I went down to help Elizabeth with something, then took a walk with David to investigate our two fence controllers. It appeared they had blocked the safety sensors to keep the back gate open, which seems counter to any security protocol. It had clearly been that way for some time.

We went back to McDonald’s a third time for lunch and had to argue with the staff about my order. The two low-level staff were as friendly as they knew how to be, while admitting complete ignorance. The manager on duty absolutely refused to make eye contact or respond when I spoke directly to her. I wasn’t ugly in any way, and I see her five days a week, so I could not fathom the stress she was under. I was eventually fed and went back to work.

The afternoon went by fairly quickly because of how late I went to lunch. I texted Kyle since I remembered he used to work at Acxiom, and he actually replied pretty quickly. I talked to him about our resident alien, and as if by mysterious forces beyond our universe, he was actually working for the company that Brandon moved to. We shared several laughs over text throughout the evening.

Muad’Dib and I made it back to town and I ordered tickets for Scott Bradlee’s Postmodern Jukebox. Then we went on a great run in the crisp air before it got dark. Summer and I ate when we got back, and then I took my car for a good washing. The new FSD release gave me all kinds of fits this morning, and even fussed quite a bit on the way home, so hopefully this helped.

I vacuumed some more to end the night, and got to sleep just a little bit early again.

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Oohs and AWS

This morning was really cool out, which caused some condensation in the cabin that prevented FSD from doing its job for nearly the entire drive. Sure, Tesla can do it with pure vision, until they can’t. The rest of the morning was all support from very early on when I learned that AWS was down, causing outages across multiple systems. The most surprising of them was our in-line email filter, which was holding on to scan-to-email attachments all morning long. Everyone just moved on quietly though, unlike the schools when everyone seems to lose their shit when even something minor disrupts their routines.

We went to McDonald’s for a really quick lunch before coming back to a call about the website. There has never been a real reason for me to be there for those, but I did actually follow up with an email to answer a question afterwards. A little while later, we had cake for Joel’s birthday, and then Rhonda let me take Teddy outside with Muad’Dib. He had to stay on his leash, but they still had a ball running around like crazy.

I had an anxiety attack just before quitting time, which was a bit of odd timing for me. Then the drive home was interrupted by traffic that came to a complete stop for a moment on the Interstate. The car tried to route me off at Blackwell, but I intervened in my infinite wisdom. Fortunately it didn’t delay me terribly long, and we got to the house for a quick run before dark.

Summer was home when we got back, and we had some leftover chicken with rice before she went to bed. I did some more vacuuming, and then it was an early night to bed after having trouble sleeping the night before.

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