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Clacky

I did a whole lot of typing today.

We went to Wendy’s for a free cheeseburger, Sonic for some free cheddar peppers, and Casey’s for a free slush. Then the afternoon got quiet as everyone upstairs left.

We stopped by the lube to see Summer since she had to close. Then I got home and discovered that Eaddie’s trash had collected ants again. Then I saw the front door was left ajar by about six inches. It looked like she didn’t even pull it shut when she left around two.

Summer came home and we had another fight about it all while she was trying to cook some ramen. I eventually just had to walk away and came back to her sitting in the floor, so I got her up into a chair and fed.

I stayed up late doing as many reviews as I could, but I just kept losing energy.

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Feeling Azure

I was in a deep dream state when Summer had to wake me up this morning. My alarm was going off, but I was knocked smooth out. I got going pretty quickly and made it out the door just a couple minutes early, so the drive in was fairly relaxed. There wasn’t anything pressing, so I looked at consolidating licensing again now that I understand our needs a bit better. Later on, that lead to some Azure stuff, and trying to automate account cleanups there.

We took a late lunch and went to Sonic to try their new meal deal. I think I preferred the chicken over the sundae, but at least I was able to add peanut butter for free. There were a bunch of carhops I hadn’t seen before, which I guessed was because of school. Everyone loved seeing Muad’Dib, and he got some pets and a pup cup. He tried to eat the whole thing, cup and all, so i got a bit messy trying to slow him down. Fortunately they had a water spigot right by the picnic tables.

The afternoon went by fairly quickly, but only thanks to the late lunch. Just as I was about to pack up, Johnny called to talk about his latest adventures. I tried to pack up while he talked, but we still left a bit late. We got slowed down a bit on the drive home, but not terribly so. Summer was having a bath when we got in, so I heated up the pretzel bites we bought, along with the brie with some nuts and hot honey. I didn’t care for it, but it needed to be eaten amidst the everpresent ants.

It sounded like a storm was coming in, so I took Maud’Dib out a little early for a good run. It felt quite a bit cooler out, so he did great. We visited my parents quickly and made it home just as it got dark. I microwaved some Lit’l Smokies and corn to eat with the remaining pretzel bites, and then got ready for bed.

Winter is coming.

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Infinite War

Summer went all-in on wanting the kids to come watch a movie with her today, so that meant we had a bunch of cleaning to do. I cleaned up the kitchen while she went to the gym. Eaddie went to play flute at somebody’s church, and then we got the living room cleaned up before going to the Neighborhood Market.

Summer really wanted to make a charcuterie board, but I just wanted to get the stuff I needed to make pesto before Mom’s basil went bad. With no plans for an actual meal, I got hungry and irritated, so I grabbed some sushi that was marked down and we made it back home. Summer started on her board while I took Muad’Dib on a run to my parents’ house to trade some croissants for a lime and garlic.

When we got back, I just stayed out of the way rather than risk further irritation. Summer got pigs in blankets, and eventually the kids came out to watch Infinity War. It was a good time, but the evening went quickly and I never got any real food. As everyone else settled down for bed, I made the pesto without knowing what to expect.

I knew I’d had pesto on things before, but never really paid much attention to it specifically. The recipe and prep was incredibly simple though, and I’d always wanted to try it. Mom already cut the basil up, so I just had to throw it into a blender with some other goodies. Since I didn’t really have an expectation, I brought Eaddie in to help tune the flavor, and we ended up with something pretty good. I figured sitting overnight would help everything meld as well.

Always outnumbered.

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Full

I grabbed my leftover burrito from the fridge and we hit the road this morning. As soon as we got out of the car, Muad’Dib bolted out of the parking lot and out of the gate after something. I never saw it, but luckily he turned around and came back in before the gate shut him out. Everyone was there today, but I was still left to myself all day. I got distracted by a couple other tasks, but my main one was still Android management.

Summer had to leave early for her meeting, so we had a really early lunch. Our usual server is the only person I’ve ever met that gets even close to as excited as Muad’Dib gets when he sees me. He had our drinks at the table just seconds after we sat down, and then asked me, wide-eyed, if I wanted him to make my plate. Truth be told, I knew what I wanted, but I couldn’t turn him down. Moments later, he brought me a chicken taco salad, chili relleno, and a tamale and chili con queso, all with extra beef and cheese poured all over it. It was a lot.

We were in and out pretty quickly, but then it was a long afternoon with indigestion. I had some success with my tablet, but got caught up with some more Microsoft account nonsense. I ended up leaving pretty late, and then got caught behind some dummies on the way home.

Summer cleaned up, but then had some typical stomach reactions. I started to take Muad’Dib to my parents’ house, but had a flat about a third of the way there. We walked back so I could put some air in my tire, and then made it over to find them watering plants outside. It was getting late, so I microwaved some curry that still wasn’t hot from the stove, ate, and then headed home.

Summer was in and out of bed for a bit while I got my things ready for work in the morning, and then I finally made it to bed.

Reset

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None of Some

I discovered someone had brought donuts and kolaches this morning on one of my trips downstairs, so breakfast was solid again instead of the Soylent I brought. I didn’t feel the best all day, but I think that was mostly my clothing choice. It helped to be up and moving around. Anneka from Gwatney called to say my car was done, but Summer insisted she wouldn’t be able to take off of work, which frustrated me.

I’ve been getting a little lost in all of my projects, and it has only helped to go back to my notes for our next staff meeting. There’s just too much to do, and it feels like everything needs focus. I’d get halfway into one thing, and then get pulled away for something else of middling importance. Nothing has been urgent, but all have been necessary.

We went to Taco Bell for a pretty light lunch, then had cake for Tammy’s birthday. Muad’Dib ran around outside with Dexter for a bit after that, and then Dexter let me pet him as long as I had some beef jerky in my hands for him.

The afternoon was quiet, and I tried to focus, but again got pulled away to other concerns. At least they were tangentially related to something else already on my plate.

We left late and got stuck in heavy traffic, especially getting back into town. Summer had a small roast in the slow cooker, so we ate while watching the Made by Google event. We were about half an hour behind, and it wasn’t as exciting as I had hoped it would be, but it was probably better than last year. I just felt old for not knowing a single one of the “celebrity” guests.

I tried to wait until it cooled down to take Muad’Dib on a run, but it still felt gross. We almost did our full run, but he just wasn’t moving. He had been feeling sick all day anyway, so I think it’s time to cut back on the treats. Eaddie stopped in briefly, late in the evening, and it made me happy that she at least made a point to say hi to me before she left again. I came out and we talked for just a moment as she left, and then I went to bed.

All of none.

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Babysitting

Summer went to the gym this morning while I had a rough start myself. She decided to try Eaddie’s shower when she got back, and much preferred the shower head in there. I gave it a try myself, and while the volume of water was better, I didn’t care for the space or the lighting. We eventually got things going and ran Muad’Dib to my parents’ house so he could stay there while we went to Conway for Spider-Man: Brand New Day.

We were both hungry, since it was after noon, so we started at Stoby’s for lunch. I thought I was going light by getting a Reuben, but the large cheese dip done us in. We arrived in Conway early, and went by Sam’s Club first to kill some time and hunt for snacks. We didn’t get much, and settled on a bag of Werther’s, then made it to the Cinemark.

The theater was filled with people, though our auditorium took a while to fill out. I fought Summer on getting popcorn, but she insisted. She also wanted an extra large for a refill, and a large drink. The movie was a huge shift in gears from any other recent Marvel films, but it was absolutely fantastic. It was definitely more emotional than any of the others, and brought you closer to the action with Spider-Man, especially in 3D.

Summer barely touched the popcorn at all, which caused some drama. I am not allowed to feel frustration. We headed straight toward home instead of having dinner. I dropped her off at her car that was parked at my office, and then beat her home so I could move the Buick out of the garage for her. She went out onto the porch with a big glass of wine, and I rode the Onewheel to my parents’ house to get Muad’Dib.

My parents were out watering plants when I got there, so he sprinted after me from a distance. I got his things, and we continued on a really great run in the fall-like air. It felt really amazing outside, so I was surprised that he shortened his run. Once we made it back to the house, he went to bed with Summer, and I did my own thing until bed.

Third time’s the charm.

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Return to Disarray

I slept a little bit later today, then got up to a big turkey sandwich to finish off that bit of lunch meat. It hasn’t killed me yet, so I guess I need to go get some more bread to finish off the salami and pepperoni. From there, I continued my quest to break down packed boxes of stuff. I got into the laundry room and cleared out the opposite corner, and finished up a couple more boxes in my office. The girls got home a few minutes earlier than I expected, and B-lined for the dog, who suddenly had all of the energy and no desire to sit in bed all day.

I continued sparingly, but was already feeling pretty worn out from being up and around for the entirety of two days. The girls were predictably worn out as well. I did want to make it over to my parents’ house to see if they wanted to go out for dinner for their anniversary. Dad was processing elderberries, and Mom was asleep on the couch. She had spaghetti on the stove, though, so Summer ended up coming over there to eat instead.

I had run Muad’Dib over, so I took the Onewheel back with him when we realized they didn’t have any cheese. We ate, then ran back home to try and bring the house back to a livable state for the rest of the week. I took a shower, Summer went to sleep, and Eaddie left with Eli, so I guess it’s back to normal.

THE Oakenfold???

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Time Wasters

There have been a ton of police on the roads lately, and I saw an article about Arkansas joining a national campaign against speeders. I just sit back and let the car do its thing. I spent an inordinate amount of time fighting limitations in Exchange and Outlook today. I had a call right after lunch, so we went to Sonic a little bit early. I wasn’t super hungry, but I got their usual deal and burned my mouth on some cheddar peppers. An older lady came up and offered Muad’Dib her leftovers, but I didn’t expect to see her pull out half of a hamburger and nearly a whole large order of tots. He made quick work of all of it.

Our call was short, and I eventually got all 124 emails sent out manually since mail merge won’t work to send from a group address. We ended up leaving just a hair late, but it was a quick drive home. We stopped at the shop to see Summer, who had been at it for an extra long day. She had a call-in and had to close, so we headed home after a while.

Summer said she wanted pasta for dinner, so I expected her to get home and take her out for dinner after she had a shower. She did not expect that for some reason, but I talked her into putting on some clothes. We went to my parents’ house to drop off Muad’Dib, and they were both working on some leftover spaghetti. We ended up coming in to help finish it off, instead of going out to eat.

When we got back home, I just went to my office for the rest of the night until bed. Summer has a run in Barling in the morning, so I won’t see her until she gets back home.

Every one.

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Eager Doggies

We had all kinds of dogs at work today. Joel was back with Dexter. Elizabeth has been bringing Zeke every day. Scott brought Maple, though I hardly saw her at all because she was hiding in Tyler’s office all day. Muad’Dib was having a fit about not being the baby any more.

I had my head stuck in Intune again all day, and had a support call before lunch for my strange PIN policy behavior, but I think I sorted that out earlier. It won’t be until another intermittent issue occurs that I’ll be proven wrong.

We went to Sonic for lunch, then finished up a pretty quiet afternoon. The drive home was fast and mostly dumb. Summer had a late meeting, so I rearranged the dishes in the dishwasher that she had washed and ran them all again. Then I put together a desk hutch I got for her. Just as she got home, I took Muad’Dib to the Neighborhood Market to deposit some bags for recycling. Then we made the trek to my parents’ house just as it was getting dark. Muad’Dib was pretty exhausted by the end of it.

Once home, I tried to quickly wrap things up for bed. I used to have a life.

At least someone’s paying attention.

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Passersby

We stopped at Shipley’s for a kolache and free donut this morning. It was a quiet day at work, and I just kept repeatedly testing Intune policies all day. We took a break for some Sonic, and then we did a quick run up the road on the Onewheel since I just transferred it from Summer’s trunk to my own earlier in the morning. The afternoon dragged a bit, and somehow everyone snuck out and locked me in at the end of the day.

Along the way home, we ran into some heavy traffic right at Blackwell, so we exited and took the highway home. We stopped at the old house to check out the lawn, then made it home where Eaddie had stopped in earlier in the day. She never said a word to me, so I tried to quietly mouth to Summer about my earplugs, and that lead to a fight later on.

I cleaned up, took care of a bunch of Vine stuff, and threw out a bunch of food from the refrigerator that had gone bad. Then I took what was left, made some fresh rice, and had everyone gather for a little bit of dinner. Eaddie left, and I took Muad’Dib on a short run because he wasn’t super motivated to move. We visited my parents and then helped a kid re-chain his e-bike because he had no clue how it was supposed to be attached. Summer was in bed for a race early in the morning, so I stayed up late tinkering with my new Anbernic RG Rotate. I assumed it was something that would be ready to go out of the box, but it absolutely was not.

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