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It’s All in My Head

I started stuffy last night, but then then my nose was running profusely all day. I progressively felt a little bit worse by the hour, but had an okay lunch at Sonic. The afternoon dragged on a bit, but having lunch late helped. Summer met a tech at the house from TCW to investigate our bad fiber, but couldn’t stay with him until he replaced the rat-chewed cable. I got no further details until she asked me at home whether they had scheduled a new appointment with me.

As I got to the house, Eaddie was leaving for a date night in Conway to see one of their wind ensembles play. I had a few ribs and then walked to my parents’ house with Muad’Dib. Mom had stuff to heat up some phở, so I stayed for dinner. Dad unboxed his new computer but wasn’t ready to do anything with it. By the time we left, it was already dark outside.

Summer was in bed when we finally made it back. I felt terrible, and prepped for sleep. Maybe tomorrow I’ll be able to start vacuuming.

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Lessons in Sevens

Every bit of today droned on. I started out running up and down to help the ladies downstairs, and then took a couple phone calls with Traverse support to fix the issues. I learned a bit, but it was probably something that those folks should know about the system they use. I don’t know how helpful it will be for me to know it.

We went to Taco Bell for a small lunch, and then made it back early just for the afternoon to creep by so slowly. Summer was home early, but I took Muad’Dib for a run as soon as we got there. I needed to help Dad cover the pool, but wanted to try and get any video I could of the skimmer robot before doing so. Fortunately he was able to get some video during the day.

Once the pool was covered, we finished our run. Muad’Dib had decided to dive right into the creek when we had passed by earlier, so he had to go outside until he could get a bath. I took Summer to La Huerta for dinner, and it was just tense and awkward all night. We ate, then went to Walmart so she could pick up a few things. We saw Amanda and talked to her for a minute when Summer was looking for Tech clothes. Then we finished up and went back to the house.

I gave Muad’Dib a bath while Summer went to bed. Eaddie came home as I was running the new vacuum, and after just a short run, I had an unexpected amount of dust. I didn’t expect good suction, so that meant the professional carpet cleaning we had done was basically worthless.

I’m ready to get gone. I don’t belong here.

I’m not sure I belong anywhere.

Maybe the sea.

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We got in early today and I fought with the breakroom computer some more. I ended up just taking it back upstairs to try and do a recovery because I couldn’t get it to do anything downstairs. It took me all day to figure out the video issue I had upstairs was with the HDMI adapter I was using.

We picked up some Subway for lunch and ate it out in the smoking area just to get some air. That was a little bit gross and just awkward enough that I probably won’t do that again. I wish we had a nice picnic table out front or something.

I stopped by the post office when I got back into town because they woudln’t leave a large package for me. They were closed, so I’ll have to leave work early tomorrow to get it. Dad was supposed to cook spaghetti for dinner, but texted to say he wasn’t feeling well while grilling some chicken wings, and we thought we’d be doing something else. By the time Summer and I both got to the house, he said everything was ready, so I rode the Onewheel with Muad’Dib over wet streets, and Summer met us there to eat.

We left right after that to rearrange the living room, and Muad’Dib and I got about halfway back when I realized I forgot his treat bag again. We turned around and finished our route that direction. Then Summer and I moved the sectional around. I got to use my laser leveling system to line up the center of the couch, and it worked great. I was only about a quarter of an inch off by eyeballing it.

Reticulating splines…

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So Much for

Today was kind of rough. I got up and made some rice to go with some of the leftovers we had. Summer came in from her porch coffee and just had a look about her. I broke down a ton of old boxes I had been keeping to help with moving from the other house since I seem to be out of control of everything now.

I did some more reviews, cleaned up some stuff, and hoped to maybe take the girls out for a nice dinner. The day went by pretty quickly and we never got our heads together to rearrange the living room. Summer helped Eaddie with some homework and I had an anxiety attack before I eventually convinced them to go for dinner. Of course I wouldn’t learn until after we got our food at Sam’s that neither of them were very hungry.

I decided to try their surf and turf at the recommendation of our waitress, and it came out quite a bit later than the girls’ food. It looked really good, but the aside from the color of the inside, the steak itself was bland and tough. It was served on a massive pile of soggy, grilled onions. My hushpuppies were practically burned, and were like chewing a mouthful of dry cornmeal. All the while, the girls spent the entire time complaining about Eaddie’s friend and how she shares more than a name with her sister.

We got back to the house and I took Muad’Dib for a run. I forgot his treat pouch, so we had to run back for that. We passed by a house where a couple were working outside, and the girl asked if I was a professional dog trainer. I shared our story, because apparently I love to do that. Then we made it over to see Dad before rushing home as it got dark.

Summer had to go in for a work meeting and didn’t get back until a little bit later. I gave Muad’Dib a bath since he splashed in some water in the street gutter. Then I discovered our garbage disposal had a small leak under the sink, so that will be a problem for another day. Eli came over to visit with Eaddie for quite a while, and I went to bed.

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SoundCloud

I didn’t sleep long. Muad’Dib was on my arm most of the night, so I awoke in some discomfort, but it was imperative that my boy be comfortable. We eventually got around and I cooked bacon, sausage, eggs, and RO*TEL for the girls. Summer had to get more RO*TEL from the store, but we had a good, late breakfast.

Summer took Eaddie to the bank and then went to the gym. I wrote a bunch more reviews. Before we knew it, it was time to get ready for Brass in the Clouds on Nebo. Eaddie brought Jenny over and I went with Muad’Dib to pick up Dad. The three of us met the girls at Bocadillos where we were met by another one of Eaddie’s friends.

We had some ice cream, and then Dad and I stopped to pick up some Taco Bell for the girls and met them on the mountain. There were cars everywhere up there, but Muad’Dib and I had a chance to ride the Onewheel down the road a bit before we settled in with everyone else.

The band seemed not well rehearsed for all their mistakes, but it was a beautiful evening out. Muad’Dib made lots of friends as he paced around my chair. Then when it was all over, I dropped Dad off at his house and then took Summer to Stoby’s for dinner.

I wasn’t thrilled with the choice. The food was fine, but I rarely crave Stoby’s. Their prices are just too high for what you get. Eaddie left with Eli when we got back to the house, and Summer went to bed. I followed shortly after.

I don’t.

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Dust Busters

I got up pretty early despite going to bed so late, and tried up some leftover hibachi rice with some other leftover steamed rice and some eggs for Summer and myself. She wanted to really dig in and clean some stuff today in preparation for some carpet cleaners, so she got into the floor, baseboards, and vacuumed dust off of everything imaginable. I spent my time sorting and unboxing some old stuff to get it out of the way. Eaddie was gone for most of the day, came back for a while, and then left again in the evening.

It was a tough time for a lot of reasons, but I appreciated the work she wanted to get done. We cleaned up the last of the spaghetti for dinner, and I took Muad’Dib for a slightly abridged walk. I let him dip in the creek before his bath, and we visited Dad briefly. Then at the end of the road, I was pretty sure I spotted Grant’s dad’s dog, Lucy. We tried to chase her down, but she took off like a lightning bolt and disappeared between some houses. I called Grant, but it wasn’t until much later that he received the message to pass along to his parents.

When we got back to the house, Muad’Dib got a flea bath, shampooed, and then some nice conditioner that all had a chance to sit for a while. He did great in the bath this time, and then we all headed to bed.

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I ended up elevating my legs last night because the swelling in my feet hadn’t been getting any better. It had done wonders by the time I got up. Summer went to the gym and Eaddie went to church. I did Vine reviews all day.

I warmed up some spaghetti for lunch just before Summer got home, and then we went out back to try and find the pendant for the living room fan. I went back in and kept doing reviews while she cleaned up.

Mom was supposed to make bún bò Huế for dinner, but when I checked in the evening, they weren’t ready. Summer and I ended up going to Buffalo Wild Wings instead, and sat outside with Muad’Dib. I think the noise got to him, because he was rowdy for a while when we first got there.

Service was inexperienced, and the food wasn’t great. The chicken seemed to be cut in half or thirds from what they used to serve. Overall it just wasn’t worth the visit.

I took Muad’Dib for a run in the cool air when we got home, and he ran well. We visited with Dad, and then made it back to the house for the night.

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Paper Thin

I didn’t sleep very late for how late I got to bed. Summer hit the gym and I started some laundry before getting showered for lunch with the family. Eaddie went to church and came back with Eli, and Muad’Dib and I rode the Onewheel over to my parents’ house while the other three followed behind.

We wanted to try the meat slicer I got for Mom, but Dad took the meat out to thaw, which made it more difficult. We juggled between different cuts of meat as some refroze and others came out of the freezer, but it eventually all got sliced. It seemed like the slicer worked really well for completely frozen meat.

The phở was really good, but Mom thought it was too salty. We all finished eating and I finished slicing all of the extra meat for more phở or spring rolls later. Summer took the kids home and I took Muad’Dib for a pretty short run since it was so warm out. We passed a house with two really surprisingly young kids trying to sell lemonade, but I didn’t have any cash.

I considered going back, but the sun was out and it was hot. I had to finish laundry anyway. Summer did her nails and worked for quite a while, so I just stuck to myself. The girls got hungry again after a while, and I had $10 of Papa Dough to burn, so I ordered a pizza and some cheese sticks, then went to pick it up with Muad’Dib.

He enjoyed the car ride, and then was a good boy and stood outside to wait for me while I got our pizza. Another customer came up and gave him some pets, so it was a worthwhile outing. We got home with the food, ate, and then Eaddie left. I tried spending some time with Summer, but she just put on another cooking competition show.

Understimulated

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Chasing the Same High All Night

Felt late.

Wasn’t.

Grabbed a biscuit from Burger King and hit the road.

Quiet and lonely day.

Dad waited for a work crew that never showed.

He called for an update, and Adam said the guys didn’t show up for work.

Suspect miscommunication and shifting blame as an excuse.

Late lunch Baconator with a surprise baked potato kicker.

Summer got home early and wanted to make dinner.

Strange rubber chickens, but ultimately decent meal.

Must be the marinade.

Muad’Dib needed a run and a bath.

Encountered a field of geese, but he was disinterested.

Had a creek bath.

Met a tiny black kid on a tiny kit bike that wanted to try the Onewheel.

Then he wanted to race.

All three of us took off.

Much fun.

Dirty good boy got a bath and came out a fluffy good boy.

Slushy mixer and chunes.

Bed.

Tequila Mocking Bird / I can’t stop drinking about you.

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No One Artificially Increases Local Demand for, and Subsequently the Median Price of Eggs Like Gaston

I spoke up on our HubSpot call this morning, but for nothing other than to show I’ve been paying attention. I got another product line imported, or re-imported so that it would be better searchable.

Lunch time could have been anything without the dog, and I considered trying the local Chinese place, but ended up at Arby’s for a French Dip instead. Later, I had an anxiety attack in my office.

Dad had to spend his birthday babysitting our house because Summer couldn’t stay home as we had planned. They were done for the day by the time I got there though, so he was gone. It started to sprinkle a bit, so I took Muad’Dib for a run in case it would get any wetter.

Fortunately there wasn’t enough water on the ground to kick up onto my leg, so we had a good run while it felt really nice out. Then it was minimal cleanup while the girls caught up, and finally sleep.