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There and Gone

I actually meant to grab a Soylent but forgot this morning, so I was super hungry by the time we got to work. I considered stopping, but didn’t really want to take the time, so I snacked and had coffee instead. It helped to get up from the desk a bit, so I started the morning by talking with Elizabeth about what she needed from UPS. Then a little while later, I went down to talk to Rhonda since she was eavesdropping on my earlier conversation. I was glad but not surprised to hear that she didn’t actually have any trouble with SpeedShip.

After that, I showed Marivic my maps in PRTG and then went back upstairs to tinker with them some more until lunch. It was free nugget Wednesday at Wendy’s, so I got to eat fairly cheap. Then the afternoon dragged a little bit. I ended up switching gears a bit to revisit onboarding, since Shane needed an account made.

I left on time and considered stopping by the liquor store, but didn’t. Eaddie was home when we got there, but then I left to run Muad’Dib. He trotted a bit slowly and it started to sprinkle on us a bit, but we got to my parents’ house without issue. Mom was already eating something else, but Dad warmed up the chicken Alfredo for us and was making salads. We ate pretty early for them, and then headed home in the dark.

I visited with Summer for a bit and then did my prep for work while a Vine drop was happening. Earlier in the morning while I was downstairs, a 10-inch network rack dropped and I missed out on that. Then while I was getting things ready in the evening, I missed out on an Ember Mug 3. Those were two very specific things I’ve been wanting to buy, so it was a bummer to miss out on free ones.

Holding out for something freer.

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UPS and Outs

I was pretty hungry this morning, so I made the split second decision to drop off the Interstate and swing through the Wendy’s in the Pilot for breakfast. That put me a little behind because I accidentally went to the Flying J first, but we made it to work on time. I thought I had a plan, but I immediately started getting otehr plans handed to me.

I was pleased to hear from Heaven when she had a question about SpeedShip. She went ahead and moved off of UPS WorldShip on her own, so I had to work out a couple details for her. I’ll have to make sure accounting has what they need tomorrow.

We got tacos for lunch, and Muad’Dib was extra good, so he got most of my cinnamon twists. I tinkered a bit with the new Red Lion controller in the afternoon, and then was stumped by a browser issue that Charles had, which ended up being due to the user profile from their old Google accounts.

I misread Suzanne’s message and thought she was coming by this evening instead of tomorrow, so we headed home quickly to get our run before she came over. Muad’Dib did pretty well, but wasn’t his fastest. We had a good time though, and got to visit my parents and get home well before dark. We were just a couple blocks away when I texted her and realized what I had done.

Summer got home just after we did, and was barely a husk of a woman after a long day at work. I was super hungry again, but she provided zero input when I inquired about food. She pulled out some leftover noodles that the kids made and ate some of those, then left the rest for me. I dressed them up with seasoning, cheese, and some frozen chicken strips that we’d had in the freezer for a while.

Eaddie breezed through at some point, but addressed only the dog before leaving again. I wanted to play a game or something, but there was no time for recreation. At least my new tire is here for my Onewheel, so I can try installing that sometime this week.

Sweet devil!

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TACOↃAT

I had a much better start today, and had time to grab Hardee’s on the way out of town since I didn’t have any cold Soylent. Apart from being stuck behind idiots hogging the left lane, we had a good ride in, and got right to work picking at UPS and PRTG some more.

Johnny called me pretty early, and I ended up on the phone with him for almost an hour trying to figure out his ESXi setup. I did my best to point him in a direction, but he’s been so scattered in his understanding. I absolutely understand it, but we also learn and react very differently, so it’s tough for me to guide him.

The day went by fairly quickly. I went to Ortega’s pretty late for National Taco Day, so they were dead by the time I got there. The food tasted especially good though, and I ended with a really good tamale and chicken enchilada. I’d still like to go on other days to see those specials, but I don’t know if that will ever happen since I have so many choices on Tuesdays.

The afternoon went a little slower despite my late lunch, and then got a little crazy when I started messing with the PLC again. Charles came in late to tell me they had set up the new radar sensors, so I tried adding them to PRTG with critical failure. Somehow my configuration push failed, and the controller seemed to quit responding. It took three or four more pushes, but it came back up. Unfortunately the changes I made came across with another floating point/integer problem, so I’ll have to convert the numbers to something PRTG can read.

We left about half an hour late and found Summer in the tub. We left for a run, then made it back just as it was getting dark. It took forever to wind down, but I eventually made it.

Restart

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Screamin’ Good Times

I got up early with Summer to go to Dardanelle for a run. Muad’Dib and I ran a couple miles with the Onewheel, and after stopping for a moment, I turned around to see him lying in a puddle to cool down. Summer made first in her age division, so she was super happy with her progress. Afterward, we went to Waffle House for some breakfast before heading back home.

We cleaned up and had a bit of a break before Eaddie left to get her friends. Then Summer and I drove separately to drop Muad’Dib off with Mom, and headed to Hot Springs. I had been belting out songs in the shower earlier, and we continued on rocking out while we were driving, so I didn’t notice how much the car was speeding. I got pulled over, and I think it was the same guy that got me when I was working at Two Rivers. He gave me another warning, and we were on our way.

We stopped at Clampit’s Country Kitchen for a late lunch on the way. We had never been, but they had 4.7 stars and the pictures looked pretty good. It was a large building with cases of meats and some other little grocery items. The deli had plate lunches, so Summer got some brisket nachos and I got half a rack of ribs to add to that. I could not have been more disappointed. I didn’t detect any smoke on the meats at all. The hot sauce wasn’t hot at all. The nachos were just yellow corn chips with Velveeta cheese dip, cole slaw, baked beans, and a bit of brisket. The ribs weren’t sauced, smoked, or tender. It was edible, but the most stereotypical “white people” lack of flavor I could possibly describe. I think the only way the meat could have been worse is if they boiled it.

The kids caught up to us and stopped there, and then we continued to Magic Springs. The parking lot was fairly empty, so we were excited to enter with basically no lines for anything. Eaddie brought Eli, Ceci, and Jenny along, and we rode some rides and had a good time. Early on, I found an abandoned refillable cup, so we ended up cleaning it out to use for the day. We got stuck on Brain Drain the second time we went up, because the guy accidentally slipped off the button to lift the ride. They had to bring it down and run a test before it could be unlocked, but Summer really wanted to do a haunted house and it was getting dark. We wandered through a couple small ones, but by the time we made it back to the larger ones, the lines had formed. I was already burned out from yelling so much and running around, and we decided to leave the kids and head home.

I let the car drive the entire way, and it did great. We picked up Muad’Dib and made it home. Summer went straight to bed and I stayed up late just catching up. The kids ended up going to Conway for some reason, so I didn’t wait up for them. They had just taken a trip to Tulsa, so a bit of extra driving in-state must not have seemed much to them. I’m just glad I’m not paying for their gas.

Poppa’s is better somehow.

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No Game

I slept through some more wild dreams last night. I don’t know if the quality of my sleep has had anything to do with it, but I don’t think I’ve dreamed this much since childhood. Summer got up to let Muad’Dib out, and I ended up sleeping pretty late. I got up in time to take my morning meds, and Summer wanted to go run the neighborhood to prep for her 5k this coming weekend. I ate some cheese and crackers and messed with my Steam Frame accessories for a bit since my Arcturus vision camera came in.

I wanted to try and see the Endgame encore locally since we wouldn’t be able to make it to a better theater, but Eaddie had a concert in the afternoon. We got cleaned up and took Muad’Dib to stay with my parents and then went to New China for a quick lunch before the concert. We were a hair late to a packed parking lot, but they were still practicing when we got in the doors. We found seats on the front row, so I don’t know what all the cars were there for.

The concert was pretty good, but Summer said Eaddie didn’t care for the last piece and suggested we could leave early to catch the movie. I didn’t really want to miss part of it, or slip out between songs, or rush to get to the theater and find good seats, so we ended up staying until the end with plans to go to the late showing of the movie.

We picked up Muad’Dib and Mom gave me more basil for pesto, so we headed home and I got that going. I had trouble with my first big batch, but it eventually turned out. The second went much quicker, but by then we were rushing to get to the theater again. We left Muad’Dib at home and Summer got the car ready to go.

I had forgotten the late show was in auditorium eight, so that was a bit of a disappointment – but not as much of a disappointment as it was when we sat there for 15 minutes past the start time for the movie, and a young lady came in to tell us the projector was broken and they wouldn’t be able to start the show.

We got a refund for the tickets, but I had to push for a couple extra vouchers for the popcorn and drink they couldn’t refund. We made it back home and I took Muad’Dib for a short run to my parents’ house to drop off some redneck tupperware. I let Muad’Dib lead us back home through a shortened reverse route.

Summer was getting ready for bed, so I cleaned up some more in the kitchen and finished up a few more things before finishing up surprisingly early.

Wrap it up!

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PL-Seas

I got out a hair early this morning and had a pretty relaxing drive in with my last breakfast burrito for the week. I planned to go up to the mix room to hook up to the PLCs, so I cued Charles up for that. I had to leave Muad’Dib in my office, and I went up to meet Charles, who had trouble getting his laptop on. It seemed like the battery was just bad and reporting a bad status, but I had mine with the software I thought we needed.

It took me a while, and eventually Charles left me up there to do my own thing. I went through three different versions of the Crimson software, and couldn’t get it to connect over a direct USB connection. Strangely enough, when I finally got it to connect, I discovered I could have done the same from my desk.

I went back to the office to tinker with it some more, and spent all day pretty focused on that project. I completely forgot that they were providing boxed lunches from a local burger fundraiser, so we went downstairs to eat with everyone crammed around the little breakroom table. I didn’t really get my fill, but Summer wanted to go to Brown’s for dinner, so it worked out well.

The afternoon was super quiet because I was there by myself for the last couple hours. I eventually got my configurations that I wanted to push to the Red Lion controller so I could monitor the PLCs, but I didn’t want to do it at the end of the day on a Friday. I ended up getting locked in, but we made our way out and got home through some pretty fast, but still annoying traffic.

My Steam Frame came in, but I had to set it aside to take Summer to dinner. Muad’Dib waited in the car, and we both filled up pretty quickly on a mound of fried food. I wasn’t as impressed today, but I’d also had worse. We came back home and walked Muad’Dib up the cul-de-sac before Summer went back inside. Then I took him on a run to my parents’ house.

Mom had a bunch of basil for me, so we picked the leaves off of that for pesto. Then Muad’Dib and I made it home to put Summer to bed. I unboxed my Frame and tinkered with it on the couch for a while, but I never actually got to play anything at all. The UI seemed a little goofy, but I had zero experience with a full VR headset outside of the old phone boxes you could strap to your face. I couldn’t get Rocket League to run, so I ended up downloading a bunch of other free VR tools to try later.

Eaddie came home pretty early for a Friday, but pretty much went straight to bed. I started to feel pretty exhausted, so I didn’t stay up late.

I’ve been Framed!

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Clacky

I did a whole lot of typing today.

We went to Wendy’s for a free cheeseburger, Sonic for some free cheddar peppers, and Casey’s for a free slush. Then the afternoon got quiet as everyone upstairs left.

We stopped by the lube to see Summer since she had to close. Then I got home and discovered that Eaddie’s trash had collected ants again. Then I saw the front door was left ajar by about six inches. It looked like she didn’t even pull it shut when she left around two.

Summer came home and we had another fight about it all while she was trying to cook some ramen. I eventually just had to walk away and came back to her sitting in the floor, so I got her up into a chair and fed.

I stayed up late doing as many reviews as I could, but I just kept losing energy.

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Always Write

I had an anxiety attack in the shower this morning, which again seemed like the first in a little while. I took a muffin to work for breakfast, and I knew it had just gotten ants around it before I put it in the fridge, so I ignored the couple dead ones that were in the box. Then, after I took a bite, I saw one of the crumbs wiggle in the box. It was so tiny that I couldn’t tell if it was a caterpillar or a maggot, but I spat it out regardless. That left me pretty hungry all morning.

I was put in Vine jail last night, so I couldn’t see any products except for what came across my Vine Helper feed that was still loaded. I couldn’t load a new page, but I could see what was coming in. I spent a lot of time writing reviews between other projects, trying to catch up after all those phone cases I ordered.

Later in the morning, I caught David and asked him to walk me around the plant to see where the PoEs were for the camera system. I’d love to redo all of that since pretty much everything had been run separately without a master plan.

We went to Arby’s for lunch to try the ArbyQ and the steak nuggets. Both were pretty middling, but I got my fill. The afternoon went by fairly quickly, and then we got stuck behind some annoyingly slow, left lane-hogging folks on the way home. Summer skipped out on Sip + Stretch, but originally said she still wanted wings. By the time we got there, she had changed her mind about that too. I ended up warming up some rice and chicken for her, and then for Eaddie when she came home briefly. I had a little bit myself to clean it up, and then I took Muad’Dib on a run.

It got dark super fast. I thought we left early enough to get back before dark, but we did not. Mom had a little bit of spaghetti squash for me to clean up with vinegar, soy sauce, sriracha, and beef jerky. Then we got home to get ready for bed.

Wake me up when September ends.

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Recovery Nightmare

I never could have imagined that upgrading from a Google Pixel to another Google Pixel would be such a terrible experience, but here we are. I had my new phone set up with the out of box experience, and it was clearly missing media from text messages. I got to work with both phones in tow, and eventually gave up and factory reset my new one, then set it up again from scratch without doing a recovery. I tried doing a setup with a different kind of restoration, but that didn’t go as planned either. I ended up factory resetting a second time and using a third party tool to restore text messages instead.

What I thought might take a couple hours ended up taking more than half of my day at work. I ended up skipping lunch because I couldn’t use either of my phones. I could have left them and picked up some food without it, but I just worked right through lunch instead.

It wasn’t even done when I left to go home. I made it all the way home and changed out of my work clothes, and then it finally said it was done. It recovered way more, but I still found the last week of messages gone. It got my super old messages and media, but I didn’t have any messages since last Wednesday. It made absolutely no sense.

Summer was home, and I was starving, so we ended up going to Cicis for a cheap dinner. They weren’t super busy, but the bar was mostly empty. They kept pizzas coming out though, and we got our fill. Afterward, we went to Walmart to pick up some vitamins before coming back home. It was dark, but Muad’Dib needed a run, so we went to my parents’ house and then around Promenade.

I spent some more time getting my new phone set up, but I still wasn’t convinced that I wouldn’t want to just wipe it and start over again anyway. I just can’t decide which partial failure is best, and I’m tired of settling.

That excuse doesn’t fly!

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Catastrophic Failure

We slept many hours. Summer, as usual, had many more than me. I woke up first, but we got out of bed around the same time. Power flickered overnight, so I had to start my computer up again. Shortly after I got it back up, power flickered again and I ended up losing all of my Tabs Outliner history. That extension has been critical for any projects I’ve had to research, so I spent literally the entire day trying to recover from that.

Summer made brunch for us out of some sausage and eggs we had in the refrigerator. Eaddie left. A new shower head was delivered, so I got that installed. I spent more time trying to recovery my Tabs Outliner, but eventually gave up and rolled back to my last good backup over a month ago. By that time, I needed to take Muad’Dib out for a run. I also wanted to have a good dinner, so I took the Pint X to my parents’ house and warmed up the leftover fish soup while my parents were out watering the plants.

Afterward we rode straight back home. I never could get the Pint over 10mph, which seemed strange. I guess I never really felt pushback, but it just felt like it wasn’t accelerating any further, and I didn’t want to nosedive. It didn’t help that it wouldn’t even make it straight up the driveway without nosediving.

When we got back in, I happened to notice that Summer put some parts of the coffee maker into the dishwasher that weren’t dishwasher safe. I didn’t feel like I blew up at her, but I still had to dig things out of the running dishwasher and clean up the mess. Two components were plainly labeled as not dishwasher-safe. She also left a pretty obvious sticker in place, so that came off in the wash. All of that ultimately lead to a small fight, and I simply couldn’t understand how she could possibly feel like she had any kind of argument.

It’s always simple, stupid stuff, but I don’t know how much more I can stand. I feel like my life was on a steady upward climb before I met her. I was moving upward with my career, and I was cleaning up my home. I let my own home suffer when I started spending most of my time with her at her house. I saw things in her life that I felt like we could improve as a team. Then I allowed the whirlwind of storm damage to my home, my desire to expand my property, and Bác Vân’s unexpected death to push me to move into a new home with her. It’s been an absolute freefall from that point forward. I can’t get any traction on any project, I’m constantly frustrated or angry, I don’t feel like I’m respected, and the only thing I can do to provide any happiness for myself is actively making everyone else unhappy.

Maybe I’ll figure it out tomorrow.

Why am I here?